RAEVILLE

Friday, November 25, 2005

Ever since Jude's been away and I am companionless (of course, I have Nommy and Kwan around), I've been putting myself in a positive attitude. I realised that I'm more mature than I think I am. So, I've been doing my Maths work everynight, reading a book, not falling asleep in class and sleeping earlier. I feel so much older.

I've been thinking about what I want to do after Year 12 and the HSC (Higher School Certificate Exam). After the exams, I would be free for more than 2 months. Free to do anything. I want to do something productive. I was thinking of travelling, maybe with mum for the fun - I'd be able to go into bars with her to listen to live music... and drink :D . I was also thinking of going on a holiday with my friends. I'd like to go to the Year 12 formal, so I figured it'd be best to stick around in Australia before then, instead of heading back to KL and coming back.

There are just so many things I want to do right now. I want to travel and listen to live music at bars and drive and ... oh, I could really go on with a longlong list!

Unfortunately, I have to wait. I need to slow myself down. Have as much fun as I can while I have the chance, before I reach Year 12 and then, Uni.

I've started reading a book called Mao's Last Dancer, and it's very very interesting. It's so inspiring. It's about this boy and his courage and determination in becoming something so big from something so small. Set in a Chinese background in post-WW2 period, the book covers issues such as extreme poverty in China, the way people lived (in poverty) and the reign of communism.

I want to do something great for a change. I've done my part during my time at AISM (my previous school), and now I feel like doing the very same at St Caths. I want to make my school years here worth something much more than just a few years at 'some' school. I want to be known for something good, and not just 'some' student from overseas. I want to leave school, after my final years, feeling like I've truly accomplished something much more than an average student.

i'll do what it takes
till i touch the sky

Cheers.
PS. It's not like Jude's absence has made me happier. Never. I'm dreadfully sad about it. I've just adopted a positive outlook on everything. I've never missed anyone as much as I do for Jude, and this has opened up a new door for me.

This feeling is amazing :)

* EDIT: OASIS IS IN TOWN (AUSTRALIA). THEY'RE PERFORMING AT SYDNEY ON THE 28th OF NOV, MONDAY. FSCK WHY DID I NOT KNOW? AND OMGWTF I WISH I COULD GOO :(((((((((

& turned on the lights; 20:50